geram!! grrr~

very geram now. i couldnt control my feelings. im just overstressed. with all the assignment, group project, and kkm's Malam Tahun Baru Cina(MTBC). i admit i am really bad in time management! although i had done my part, like VIP invitation card, JAKSA and Felo invitation letter. and my timbalan had helped me do the Signature Board, but i still worry. I worry my 'miss' will got scold during the rehearsal cause we dont have much time to practise. Most of the time they have classes that they cant skip although they have surat pelepasan. Moreover, i need them to help me do AJK Nametag. that's even worst. I tak sanggup to give my ajk do so much. I can see their tiredness and fearness in their eyes. all of them scared of rehearsal. and im worry for them. that's why i hope i can give them more practise so that they make less mistake during rehearsal. Nevertheless, i never walk as miss protocol, so i don't really clear with the movement. In my deep heart, i do hope we can go through it. Back to the topic..why i am so geram? even now i am crying..one of my senior insist want my miss to wear a belt with their dress with make them so uncomfortable. they prefer not to wear belt. and some of my miss asked if they can just wear the dress without the belt. I know that senior had did a lot of things. but the problem is my miss doesnt feel comfort with it. so why want to force them? let me ask u, will u wear something that uncomfortable? I actually very geram because the way he talk like what he decide, i must follow. maybe he's stress but i seriously feel sad when he talk in that way.. i wonder he will read this onot.. i know i have to be opstimistic..if they really have to wear, then i just have to do what i have to.. today is a bad day..i feel so stress, tired and ..........i miss home....i cant wait for cny...