suddenly..

suddenly i feel very weak and tired. i just turn on the song im listening as loud as my lappie can. my mind feel very blank yet i still want to blog. I, myself also do not know what happened. i just got my account test this morning. i got 78.8% and that means i'll get 23.55/30 for my midsem. this 23.55 will be add in my final test(60%). Where's another 10%? Hmm..the 10% is from my attendance and also performance in tutorial and also my project. i expect i'll get above 80% but the result turn me down deeply. i cant speak a word but just look at my result. im going back tomorrow with my neighbour, Siok Chin. i should feel very happy but somehow i feel the opposite way. i was thinking i need to submit many assignments when i came back from holiday. really alot. and every lecturer seem like hinting us there will be quizzes on the 1st class right after our holiday..i know myself, if i bring books go back, i will not take it out from my bag and study. i will rather online, eat, sleep, watch drama and hang out with friends. huan huey wen ar huan huey wen, apa yang terjadi pada kamu? If u see me talk alot, just appeciate that particular time. cause at that time, im really happy and didnt worry or tension of anything. But..if you see me quiet and dont feel like talking to you, it's not i don't like you or ego..im just want to be alone and listen song in my hp. i will feel much more better in that way. im the kind love to be alone when im depressed. the most i will do just sms or call myfriends. i can feel my temper quite bad lately, especially the way i talk to myfriends. sorry, i still havent change that bad habit. even to my parents also im like that. anyway,hope i can cope up my stress soon. kla, enough crapping.