Friday, August 08, 2008

stress

i just came from Account tutorial class. I am late to the class for 40minutes. i took 8.30am bus to here whereas my class is 8am-10am. "geng" right? I oversleep..i sleep till 8am only get up. I dont know why i cant hear my phone's alarm. im too tired maybe. yesterday have computer class til 9pm, tiong hua meeting til 11pm then sketch practise till 1.30am. when i come back i do some account assignments till around 3am. My lateness to class reminds me when i was 'alarm clock'..i hope i've a human alarm clock..funny? i just feel that phone's or clock's alarm not reliable..what kind of reason hor? should blame myself for sleeping too late..guess i should sleep earlier or not sleeping next time..
im going to cut down time on chatting in ebuddy d
im stressed
i make my roomie feel stressed whenever she saw me
my roomie make me feel so guilty and hopeless. i dont know what i can do. Her habit and attitute totally different with mine..she has her concept/rule in life. to her, she must not break the rule. i feel tension when i am studying or stay up late, she will...urm....i dont know how to explain. it's like i make her feel she so useless because she cant stay up late..something like that.. im not going to make her stressed or what..I AM NOT! i can feel she very stress..she told me her heart feel very uncomfortable when wake up in the morning. like today, i wake up late so i vry vry rush to get prepare and take bus go class. so i dont talk much to her..n she just staring on me. then she suddenly tell me her heart feel uncomfortable. i asked her continue sleep since she dont have class today and ask her dont think and make herself so worry. then she answered,"if i not feeling well, i lagi cant continue sleep. later i become like pesakit that just know to lying on bed!"..then i just quiet and leave the room. when in bus i send her a forward message..i really dont know how to advise her..can anyone give me opinion? we didnt argue..weekdays really stressed for us. plus, i dont have the time talk to her on weekdays. our time so diff. when she free, i busy and the other way round..im trying to spend more time with her on weekends..
only god knows what is in my mind and what i am doing..
im stressed

3 comments:

BearBear said...

haha, u sound like me when i in college. i also got a roomie that is like ur roomie, cannot sleep late wan. maybe u shud try talking to her, see y her heart is uncomfortable. if for any reason u think its medical problem then maybe can take her to doctor(most probably not la). then try not to feel too stressed, since u say both of u feel stress, well, one person have got to be more cheerful, then oni can cheer up the other. and if u staying up late to study causes her to feel uncomfortable(maybe cos the light still on or something), then maybe u can find another place where it won't kacau her lo. but most importantly is that u two must tolak-ansur. tolerance is the most important thing when sharing a room. like me and my roomie, eventually, he got used to mi studying at late at night, and sometimes, i go out to study also. if ur roomie feel uncomfortable not because of u studying late at night or maybe she concerned with ur lifestyle of sleeping late, then u can assure her that u are fine and have been living well with this lifestyle lo(u have, have u?). hopefully this helps ur problem.

Huey Wen said...

thanx for ur opinion but i still cant get the idea. haha.

this weekends she ask me teman her go Puduraya. i wanted to teman her. but i have kursus on weekends. ya, one person have to be more cheerful but..everytime i come back from class or activities, if she at room she'll studying. while me seeing her study, i also just do my own things or maybe nap if have time. we only can spend more time on weekends. then im a person very very stressed when exam coming. i will really diam..very very diam when study for exam. i dont talk. perhaps when someone talk to me i act like tak dengar. i concern my studies more. im a bad friend rite? then i'll not go out from room if not neccessary. i'll da pau food or just eat biscuits in room. and whenever im free i'll open my book and study. that's me. gila study when exam coming.
not i dont want talk to her, just that when i feel i got time i must study cos next week have exam d. and i really scared i cant answer. so i need full concentration. maybe after my exam i'll settle up with dis..ok ark?
it's hard to change that bad habit..when i at home study for pmr or spm im already like that. i dont chai or talk with my family when exam. haha~ only speak a few words in a day. i always lock myself in room =p My mum always understand me. really terharu when see her cook this n that for me when exam. now really miss her soup.LOL!

BearBear said...

can always take ur time to settle the problem, no hurry to settle. take as much time needed as u need. as for ur study habit, that one can explain to her if she one day tell u that she feel that u no 'chai' her so that she can understand lo. as for u missing ur mum's soup ar... that one i reli reli cannot help... hehe